I tested again this morning. Still light but still positive and pink! I need to be patient and realize it's still only 10dpo! I should be happy to have any line at all this early.
So far, it is all still sinking in. It doesn't feel real and I still don't believe it.
And by far, the hardest part, is posting my results for all the ladies on my discussion boards/groups. These are women that have supported me when I was sad, angry, jealous. Now I am posting my positive and I know, even behind the congrats, there is hurting. And I hate that I am a part of that. Right now I feel like I'm stuck in between...no longer TTC, but not pregnant enough to talk about much of anything except sheer excitement as well as panic.
Amidst all the anxiety, somewhere deep down there is a calm. I had a good feeling about this month and I really have a good feeling about the whole thing. I feel like this is truly our rainbow baby. I pray that I am right!
That being said, I don't plan to end the blog here. But, I do understand if there are those that choose to unfollow (even though I'd lovefor you all to stay). I know just how hard it is to watch someone experience what you so desire. I am by no means out of the woods, so the blog will continue to include my pregnancy fears as well as my feelings coming from past experiences; and new feelings and events going forward.
Yay for another bfp...I'm sure it was great to wake up to! I'm so glad to hear you're going to continue blogging...I hope you do for the next exciting chapters too...would love the keep following your journey! Please don't feel guilty or bad about posting about your happiness and exciting news anywhere - one day everyone will get their bfp and hope and need for the same well wishes and support. You deserve this! Enjoy every bit of it. I'm so happy for you!
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Thanks Maria! I KNOW you will continue blogging and I look forward to following for a very long time! When's your due date anyway? March __?
DeleteThis is great news! Hoping for continued dark tests! Keep us posted.
ReplyDeleteyay!!!!!!!!!! congrats!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteSo excited for you!! Congrats!! I will absolutely continue to follow, because I'm so very happy for you. Certainly gives all of us a little much needed inspiration that it will happen!
ReplyDeleteYay! Glad you don't plan on ending your blog. I think the best is yet to come! :) I do understand the whole limbo thing though. I still feel like I am there and I am wondering if I will ever feel completely confident. Wishing you the best of luck in the next few weeks!
ReplyDeleteTwo days of positives, that is VERY good news! I lost one follower when I announced that I was finally pregnant, and it bothered me a bit, so I hope you don't lose any. For me, even during the stress of TTC, I wanted to see that things were working out for other people who wanted it so badly. Post tomorrow's test for us, so we can watch that line getting darker with you!
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