Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Not Again

12dpo temp down a little and BFN. Cramping was off and on last night...but bad when it was on. Boobs hurt. I'm pretty sure I'm out. I'm trying not to be too disappointed, but it's hard. I had such high hopes for this first cycle of Femara. I thought if I did everything right, it would work. I know it's only the first round and we have several more to go, but now that we failed again, that thought of "what if" has entered my mind again. What if Femara doesn't work...then what? What if we can't conceive again? It breaks my heart just thinking about it.

I know I need to relax and give Femara a chance. At least a few more cycles. But this journey is getting so much harder than I ever thought it could be. Sometimes I just don't know how I'll carry on :(

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  1. Ugh, I am sorry. I know it is impossible to be upset right now. :( Thinking about you.

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  2. That feeling of just knowing you are out sucks. There is always a chance you could get a surprise, but I know it's hard to think that way when you know your body. You are right, you need to give Femara a chance. You are upping your chances from what they were before, so try your hardest to focus on the possibilities of a new cycle, where your body might respond even better to it!

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    1. I'm already coming to terms with AF showing up in the next 3 days...and moving on. If I get pregnant this next cycle, I'll likely be due within a week of my brother's wedding. Not exactly great timing, but if it happens that way, so be it! Like you said, the hardest part is knowing you're out, but you have to wait for AF to show to move on...

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