12dpo temp down a little and BFN. Cramping was off and on last night...but bad when it was on. Boobs hurt. I'm pretty sure I'm out. I'm trying not to be too disappointed, but it's hard. I had such high hopes for this first cycle of Femara. I thought if I did everything right, it would work. I know it's only the first round and we have several more to go, but now that we failed again, that thought of "what if" has entered my mind again. What if Femara doesn't work...then what? What if we can't conceive again? It breaks my heart just thinking about it.
I know I need to relax and give Femara a chance. At least a few more cycles. But this journey is getting so much harder than I ever thought it could be. Sometimes I just don't know how I'll carry on :(